Thursday, February 15, 2007

Last night...

My husband Gary had emergency neck surgery. I myself am filled with mixed emotions for many reasons.

First, he had been neglecting his health (diabetic-cancer survivor) for close to three years, as the group health insurance which covered my family became totally unaffordable (cobra) after my business partner (who controlled our insurance) unexpectedly & abruptly abandoned our business, creating a domino effect of trust and security loss. Gary's been uninsurable since, due to his existing conditions.

Secondly, he kept his grapefruit-sized abscess a secret from us for the past week, feigning a headache, believing it would go away by itself. He hid his abscess due to fear of surgery, fear of more recovery and fear of being scolded for not taking care of his health. He was especially afraid to go to the doctor, as he didn't want to incur a huge medical bill, which we cannot afford. I know he was scared, but things just don't go away by themselves.

Thirdly, Cedars, knowing full well that we were uninsured, performed the surgery there. I was at work when he went in; I thought for sure they would have sent him to County General. I don't even want to know how much that bill is going to be!

I am relieved that he is alive, but so angry at him for his actions. I am optimistic that his family will lend their support. I am hopeful that in the future the Democrats will get some sort of national medical program put into action (that's about as political as I get.)

I'm going to work now to escape for a few hours!

8 comments:

Kelly Kilmer said...

Suzi, How is Gary doing?
I hope that you are all ok...
Sending lots of good thoughts and prayers...
Kelly

Linda said...

Oh my! If there is anything I can do for you, I am there!

Helle Greer said...

OMG Suzi, I'm so sorry this is happing to your family.
I will send some good prayers your way.
I hope Gary is doing well.
Hugs,
helle

TandJ said...

Wow.
Lobbing lots of healing energy to your husband.

michelle m white said...

Please know I'm keeping you in my prayers! I'm so sorry ...take care of youself too!

Teresa said...

Oh my gosh Suzi. My heart and prayers go out to Gary and to you and your family. I hope you all feel peace and comfort again very soon. *BIG HUG TO YOU GIRL*

Reva Solomon said...

Hi Suzi - soooo sorry to hear of your husband's surgery - and all the worries that go with that both emotionally and financially - I must say that I was sent to Cedars after my earthquake accident back in 1994 and spent 2 weeks there - it is a great hospital - my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family - I know that G-d will be there for you - Shabbat Shalom and blessings - Reva Solomon
PS - e-mail me privately and I will tell you about some financial info that might help - scribewizards@juno.com

minnie said...

suzi, i am sending thoughts of healing to your husband, i know he will heal. i am with you and the healthcare this country has to offer... take good care of yourself. xxoo minnie